a day after monik's bday

I was almost to give up on the English blog. maybe I will pretty soon, we’ll see…still no success in convincing people to join the Armenian one. honestly I don’t enjoy it much myself :-) most of my writing tends to be personal and it’s challenging to sound neutral:-)

so let’s see what’s new with me:

1. Amalik’s back from London for a vacation and it’s great I can enjoy her company. she’s not changed much. has become more open perhaps.

2. Monik broke up with this guy. was tough, but my guess is the tipping point was Areg :-) I’d really love to see them together. I like Areg a lot: he’s kind, intelligent, handsome, has great sense of humor and well, let’s just wait :-)

3. Karen finally left me alone, good (we’re finally coming to news about me rather than those around me:-))

4. ARTO – guess this is enough to say how I feel now:-) his music is gorgeous: sincere, passionate, open, so traditional and at the same time so vehemently breaking these very traditions… and it’s simply great when you can share the understanding of this with people around you, in my case with Amalik and Dzyuno:-)

5. I learnt that our project did not win the award scheme, but I did not have high expectations anyway. Though it would have been great to visit London:-) well, some other time perhaps:-)

6. now I’m really excited to hear what AnnaM has to propose! creative writing sounds fun!!!!

7. I’ve started teaching and I enjoy it so much that can’t even describe. I’m so glad I know what my destination is. I’ll just keep on with ICHD until I get a degree in edu (oops, do I really mean this:-)?)

8. 101 stories of Zen – a wonderful collection of stories so different from the western ones! in order to enjoy the reading you’ve got to completely leave your previous mindset aside, which, believe me, is not such an easy thing to do:-) especially the second collection: Doors without Doors… the western logic crashes against this “doorless door” with such a bang you think, heck, and I thought I knew smth:-) one of my favorites from the first collection is the one about the Kyoto governor: he pays a visit to one of the Zen gurus and gives his card to the servant to ask for an audition. on the card he writes, “name, surname (I have a hard time remembering Japanese names:-)), governor of Kyoto.” the master reads the card and says, “I don’t know anybody with such a name and have no wish to converse with an unknown person.” the servant returns with a low bow and says that the master has refused to see the governor. the man smiles and asks for the card again. he takes is and deletes the “governor of Kyoto”, leaving only his name. when the master sees the card for the second time, he goes like ”oh, dear ‘name, surname’! what a fine man! of course, I’ll see him. ask him in”… what struck me in this story is the wisdom of the politician! wish we had at least one such leader:-)

9. malkhas club was great and I’m looking forward to going there again. I’ve reserved this Friday for stop but am not sure if will eventually make it there:-)

9 is enough :-)

i'm so tired... so tired that it's not funny any more. why do people always assume they're so much better than those around them (including me!) it just drives me crazy, this self-righteous modest role of a mother..., girl, we all get tired and sick and sleepless but we do not avoid looking the truth in the eye or at least try to understand what a friend is tryting to say...

i'm just tired and going through another fit of misanthropy...

Met this woman at the film where Bergman talks about 11 of his movies. I keep meeting such people time and again: people who’re essentially nutcase, but they do not ever realize this. They make this sophisticated comments about arts, do not bother expressing their attitudes and emotions rather extravagantly, always seek a company among the strangers and as a rule, get shunned as if from lepers… I can’t stop feeling sympathetic to these people. They’re so lonely and annoying… and for some reason in Armenia these are mostly single women. Male weirdos are sort of happy creatures, or even if not happy, sort of without any pretence: if they’re mad, they’re mad, no attempt at hiding egos behind intelligent statements and enthusiastic exclamations.

Really like Sevak's thought "When it becomes possible to buy anything with money, there rises the wish to walk on the water "... well, yes, in majority of cases. This is a nice quote about bourgeoisie, not more. Some are blessed enough to wish for this without the first condition being necessary.